Oh my! It's January already?! Oops...

December was a busy month. Full of parties, adoption meetings with various people, getting funds secured, shopping for Christmas, baking, and work. To tell you the truth I'm glad its over. I just couldn't really get into the mood this year. That's kind of a lie.. any time baby Jesus was talked about I'd bawl like a little baby myself because it's a baby and were going to have one or two ourselves this year, and Jesus is so wonderful to me. So I guess I put too much pressure on myself. I tried to make so many memories of the last Christmas with just Dave and I, I just forgot to relax myself. That's a lie. I didn't want to take time to relax because all I would do is get anxious and stressed about whats happening soon. It's a huge change!! And we are choosing this. When this happens, there is no going back. It won't be just Dave and I anymore.

I've wanted this for so long and now it's here I just don't know what to think. I'm excited to have baby(s) and be the cute mommy and have baby stuff around and do all that, and I know we will be good parents, yatta yatta yatta, but it will be different. No more doing what I want when I want, just picking up and go, sitting and watching a show while painting my nails to perfection and getting ready for the day for an hour, taking time making meals, getting amazing unbothered sleep, you get the idea! Is that selfish? I know millions of women have had babies and have survived and its rainbows, butterflies, and kittens... and lots of poop and barf. But it's all seeming real now and I'm excited, but also anxious and nervous. In any case, I know and understand this is a huge blessing and I'm so grateful this path has come. I cannot wait until the baby(s) get here and we can start our eternal family.

I have started thinking about nurseries and clothes and have our name lists up to date and I REALLY cannot wait to buy clothes. I see the cutest clothes on Pinterest and about die of cuteness overload. Also, every time we go to target I “accidentally” walk by REALLY slowly and eyeball down the baby section at all the cute clothes and make mental notes to self of outfits I want. I do the same thing down the baby toy and accessories isle. But for now, I just buy a boring box diapers every other time I get groceries.

The lady who is in charge of the embryos texted me the end of last week and said hopefully January should be our month so PLEASE pray that we can get them this month!!! And most likely in February they will implant them. It will depend on everything. Hooray! She is saying we are tentatively getting 4 embryos. 2 in each straw. We are thinking we will use 2 now and 2 later.

Anyways, this is all I can think about right now, if you couldn't tell. So if you want to go do something sometime to help get my mind off of things, I'd be more than happy.  

So for the holiday festivities we went to the Forgotten Carols and we went to the lights on Temple Square. For Christmas eve we went to Golden Corral with Daves family and then went to his parents for a Christmas party where we played a few games and had a cute production of the nativity by the little cousins and then we watched White Christmas. We slept over and opened presents in the morning then we went to my parents home. We opened more presents and ate (by that time) brunch and we took all our stuff home and took down all our Christmas decorations and then went back to play games, relax and have Christmas dinner. It was a great day and I was glad it was over.

For new years in the evening, we carpooled with a friend from my high school to Jordan commons to have a fun party with some other old friends from high school. We had SO much fun playing games, talking, and eating yummy potluck appetizers. We probably get together 3-4 times a year and have a blast each time.