December was a busy month. Full of
parties, adoption meetings with various people, getting funds
secured, shopping for Christmas, baking, and work. To tell you the
truth I'm glad its over. I just couldn't really get into the mood
this year. That's kind of a lie.. any time baby Jesus was talked
about I'd bawl like a little baby myself because it's a baby and were
going to have one or two ourselves this year, and Jesus is so wonderful to me.
So I guess I put too much pressure on myself. I tried to make so many
memories of the last Christmas with just Dave and I, I just forgot to
relax myself. That's a lie. I didn't want to take time to relax
because all I would do is get anxious and stressed about whats
happening soon. It's a huge change!! And we are choosing this. When
this happens, there is no going back. It won't be just Dave and I
anymore.
I've wanted this for so long and now
it's here I just don't know what to think. I'm excited to have
baby(s) and be the cute mommy and have baby stuff around and do all
that, and I know we will be good parents, yatta yatta yatta, but it
will be different. No more doing what I want when I want, just
picking up and go, sitting and watching a show while painting my
nails to perfection and getting ready for the day for an hour, taking
time making meals, getting amazing unbothered sleep, you get the
idea! Is that selfish? I know millions of women have had babies and
have survived and its rainbows, butterflies, and kittens... and lots
of poop and barf. But it's all seeming real now and I'm excited, but
also anxious and nervous. In any case, I know and understand this is
a huge blessing and I'm so grateful this path has come. I cannot wait
until the baby(s) get here and we can start our eternal family.
I have started thinking about nurseries
and clothes and have our name lists up to date and I REALLY cannot
wait to buy clothes. I see the cutest clothes on Pinterest and about
die of cuteness overload. Also, every time we go to target I
“accidentally” walk by REALLY slowly and eyeball down the baby
section at all the cute clothes and make mental notes to self of
outfits I want. I do the same thing down the baby toy and accessories
isle. But for now, I just buy a boring box diapers every other time I
get groceries.
The lady who is in charge of the
embryos texted me the end of last week and said hopefully January
should be our month so PLEASE pray that we can get them this month!!!
And most likely in February they will implant them. It will depend on
everything. Hooray! She is saying we are tentatively getting 4
embryos. 2 in each straw. We are thinking we will use 2 now and 2
later.
Anyways, this is all I can think about
right now, if you couldn't tell. So if you want to go do something
sometime to help get my mind off of things, I'd be more than happy.
So for the holiday festivities we went to the Forgotten Carols and we went to the lights on Temple Square. For Christmas eve we went to Golden
Corral with Daves family and then went to his parents for a Christmas
party where we played a few games and had a cute production of the
nativity by the little cousins and then we watched White Christmas.
We slept over and opened presents in the morning then we went to my
parents home. We opened more presents and ate (by that time) brunch
and we took all our stuff home and took down all our Christmas
decorations and then went back to play games, relax and have
Christmas dinner. It was a great day and I was glad it was over.
For new years in the evening, we
carpooled with a friend from my high school to Jordan commons to have
a fun party with some other old friends from high school. We had SO
much fun playing games, talking, and eating yummy potluck appetizers.
We probably get together 3-4 times a year and have a blast each time.
