Infertility.

Some people I know have wondered and are scared to ask at times because they don’t know what would unfold of asking me about this subject. Or at work when I carry a conversation and kids come up. I tell them and they apologize and ask me forgive them tor asking I just tell them it’s okay. I am totally open and willing to discuss it. I am pretty sure this is the biggest trial of my life. Full of ups and downs. Each time we go to a doctor’s visit you don’t know if it will be good news or bad news this time, or another procedure. Then they do all they can, then tell you, you have to see another doctor. It gets tiring. It’s nothing Dave or I have done in the past, it is just there. Honestly though, I wouldn’t trade it for the world. Dave and I have grown so much closer together. We have learned to love each other more deeply and willingly. We have such a strong relationship with our Heavenly Father. We have learned prayer and hope and love and to just be still and know that he is there and he knows all things and that he has a special plan for Dave and I. Someday I WILL be a mommy to children, and I can’t wait. But until then, I need to greet my trial with a smile, and hold a baby just a little bit longer when I get the chance. “I recognize that, on occasion, some of our most fervent prayers may seem to go unanswered. We wonder, ‘Why?’ I know that feeling! I know the fears and tears of such moments. But I also know that our prayers are never ignored. Our faith is never unappreciated. I know that an all-wise Heavenly Father’s perspective is much broader than is ours. While we know of our mortal problems and pain, He knows of our immortal progress and potential. If we pray to know His will and submit ourselves to it with patience and courage, heavenly healing can take place in His own way and time.” —Russell M. Nelson, “Jesus Christ—the Master Healer,” Ensign, Nov. 2005, 86

busy.

Our lives are so crazy right now, and we have never been so in love. Dave has been gone again this week. He is traveling a lot still. Which is good but also hard. He has applied for a few positions in the Layton area. so we will see what comes of it in the next few weeks. I have been working as usual too. Its kind of getting old, so I try to look for the fun in things now... work can get interesting. Haha! I had a girls night out on Friday. It was a BLAST!! We went to Bucca and to the Gateway to window shop and then to a late movie. I needed girl time to rejuvenate after a few months of this Doctor/Trying-to-have-a-baby drama. Also, We found a super cute apartment in Layton and gave the lady our application. So we will find out soon if we get to move closer to family and work. Send good thoughts our way!!

That. Song.

I know this is silly. But when it becomes the week of my birthday I have so much anxiety. Its all due to one thing. That. Song. "Happy Birthday". I HATE THAT SONG!!! It is so over played. Technically it is illegal to sing that song due to copyright issues. ANYWAYS!! What are you supposed to do while people sing it to you?? It is the most awkward uncomfortable thing EVER. Don't get me wrong, I love it when I get calls and texts saying Happy Birthday or whatever, but I just want to kiss you in the mouth with a chair or something. Nothing against you, just that stupid song. If I were Superman, that song would be my kryptonite.

Dave likes to have fun with it though. He will sing a word every once in a while all throughout the day. Which is kinda funny. Then IF we decide to go out for my birthday (I usually chicken out because I know Dave will tell them the "big news") he will almost tell the waiter and hint all through our meal and I will get embarrassed and then I have to beg them not to sing. Apparently its quite funny.

Just in case you haven't grasped the idea here, I hate that stupid birthday song.

BUT! There is one birthday song I have come across that I don't mind. Hence the video below.

Just thought I'd get that off my chest. :)

well hello.

It has been WAY too long since I have posted last. My bad.. Dave is busy working. He is gone ALL the time which is no fun. I guess its better to work than not, but I wish there were more cases in Utah for him. He is looking for a security or police officer position in the Davis county area. We don't want to go south past Salt Lake. I am busy with work too. I am almost done with all of my training on the donor floor (phlebotomy). Next is working up front where I get to run and process donors before they go out to the floor. I'm not sure how I feel about that yet. Haha.. I get requests by donors to stick them (which is always an honor) and I wont be able to do that when I work up front. Oh well.. In case you're wondering why we haven't had kids yet, we just found out some news with the HSG test I had last Wednesday. **Notice, I am about to go into detail, so if you don't want to know, you can stop reading.** Apparently My fallopian tubes were closed and the dye test I had was a basic attempt to open them. The PA was able to open my right fallopian tube, but just could not get my left to open up. (But hey, Ill take one open tube vs. none) I also have some scar tissue in my uterus due to an infection I had a few years ago. Also, my uterus is tilted a little to the left and back. SO! My doctor referred me to see a infertility specialist. (DEFINITELY not what we wanted to hear.) So I am still having trouble soaking that one in, but at this point, if it will help us have a baby, were all over it! I have an appointment set for May 20th. Dave wont be able to come due to work, so hopefully I can brave it through by myself. Also, have you heard about the show Duck Dynasty? Yeah.. were hooked. Its our current favorite show to watch. Dave even has a Si shirt, Jack!

work.

I just have I say that I LOVE my job. It is so awesome! Everyone is so friendly and happy to be there working all day. The management is so friendly and kind. It's the total opposite of my last job (I was so worried about that). I'm technically going to be a Phlebotomist but I will also work in the front, taking peoples vitals and helping with the computers and debit cards and work in the back taking test from samples of the doners plasma as well. All of that will take about 6 to 9 months of training. I'm not to thrilled about that part. I'm also not too thrilled about waking up at 3:15 in the morning to get ready for work. When we move back to Layton in about 4ish months I can hopefully cut that time in half. Dave is still working as a PI. He doesn't love it, but he's grateful for it. We will be earning and saving a ton more money now, so we will be able to put him through post training if that's what he still wants to pursue.

New Job

So Dave was gone for all of last week and he came home to a surprise. A happy wife with a new job! It's only taken a year of being like this chick. Yes, I totally looked like her. Can you see the resemblance?

One night after having enough of this and feeling like I'm not worth anything earlier that day, I felt that I needed to get on job search site. I did and found this cool sounding job and applied. 2 days later I got a call for an interview. The day of my interview my brain looked like this inside.

The interview went REALLY well because it turned into a job shadow for the next hour which then turned into another interview which turned into a job offer. I was like...

Yup, So excited I switched genders. So now I'm waiting for the first day where I'm sure it will be like..

And this is what I'll be doing.

I'll be a Plasma Center Technician at Biolife Plasma Center. Yay me!!!

Pictures

Everyone loves pictures. At least I do. Especially ones that show the insides of peoples houses so I can see how they decorate and to get some ideas. That sounds creepy, but I swear it's not. Our family room

Kitchen

Laundry closet

Bathroom

Bedroom

Things about our apartment I love... The vents are on the ceiling.

Were the lucky ones to break in the new flooring and carpet.

We live 5 blocks from the new Brigham City Temple.

Last but not least... we're closer to our "religious" Friday date night at Improv